Saturday, October 08, 2011
I wish for a time...
Nearly 3 years ago, I gave birth to a beautiful girl. Since then, my life has felt a transformation of sorts. For starters,this is the longest case of writer's block I've had! I think it is my sleep-deprived state that provides an ample dose of mind fog on a daily basis. Wait, did I change my underwear today? Geesh!
Tonight, my husband asked a darling yet interesting question and I think I surprised him with my answer. He said, "When you were younger, is this where you hoped you would eventually be?" I responded a quick NO. But wait! Let me back up! I think for the most part, yes! However, there is an element that really surprises me about the path I have found myself on. I had always tried to think outside the box. I had always yearned for a somewhat unconventional lifestyle.
This year, we embarked on a purchase of a new home. In a subdivision. Hmmmm.. not so sure how I feel about that. I will get back to you on that one. I had tried to convince my husband of a one year retreat to B.C. but it was kabashed due to his own need for a sense of security. I get that. Having said that, I think we sometimes need to push outside our comfort zones to test the waters and see if we are pleasantly surprised. Life is a gamble and it is too short, that is for darn sure. It is also about compromisng with your partner....
I still daydream about a time when I will be strolling down a beach in Western Canada, feeling as free as a bird... with my children splashing in the ocean and my husband's hand in mine. I look forward to a time when courage will see us embark on a little adventure we can call our own-- even if only for a short while.
I wish for a time.